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Value your lessons & value yourself

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  Value your lessons & value yourself When a child is born ideally this child is precious. The baby is innocent, unique, pure, honest, dependent a complete blank slate. Tabula Rasa (blank slate) it is a gift & a curse. Our chapters are dependent on the caregivers, be it healthy or unhealthy parents, or parental figures. The baggage we carry was packed by the past, our parents fill our bags with love, acceptance, honesty, coping skills or stones.   If your bags are filled with all the spoils of being cherished, your load is light, your baggage is a delightful carry on bag, easy to traverse life with, always having it available to assist you, hurdles are easier with this load & victories are momentous.     When your baggage is fill with judgement, anger, pain, distance & uncertainty, your baggage is unmanageable. This baggage is heavy, the wheels don’t roll so we are forced to carry these heavy bags. The locks will not remain fastened allowing our ...

Detached Heart, natural fact.

Fact are facts and feeling are arbitrary. I have had a rough week, who am I kidding I have had a rough 59 month, however, that is neither here nor there. The facts of my existence is a tale that I have frequently hid, denied, and suppressed for decades. Upon completing my graduate degree in psychology, I had learned to dig deeper an deeper into my psyche and slowly uncover my truths. Although I managed to learn about my truth without a degree, the actual act of learning taught me far more than I was prepared for. 59 month ago my father nearly died an my parents both in ill heath moved into my home. Out history is not that of rainbows and kittens, but the person that I am knew I had to do the right thing. With great sacrifice I have cared for the very people that created  the toxic environment that I was force to sink or swim in. There is a continual perfect storm of resentment, duty, empath, compassions, pain, love & ANGER, that festers just under the surface on a daily basis. ...